Okay, Monday starts and thing are going as normal and the receptionist comes in, talks to the fearless leader of medical records, and then abruptly leaves because there's a death in her family, but it just doesn't feel right to me in the office for some reason. I had suddenly gotten this feeling that something really not good had happened. Even Annette, the new nurse that will be coming into the office eventually said something didn't feel right, we just didn't know what it was.
So then we have a "mini" office meeting and we talk more about how the state is due anytime, we talk about some other clap trap, and then we get to the "changes". So Joann, my boss says that as of October 13th the receptionist position will be eliminated for financial reasons.
Now its no big secret that I've had my differences with Mary (see this post as an example), but when I heard that she was loosing her job I instantly felt sick. But as I continue to think about it, I think I was more upset wit the fact that she's being let go for financial reasons. I could see if it had something to do with her really crummy attitude, but because they don't want to pay her salary... That just doesn't sit will with me. And sadly it doesn't sit well with me because that could have easily been me. Joann has and always will question what I do and my ability to do my job. Even though I've been there now, a year and a half she still doubts my abilites. And quite honestly, if it wasn't for the fact that Diane pulls so hard for me, she would have probably canned me back when that incident with me having a major meltdown happened.
After that news came out I was just a wreck. I've never been in a job where people have gotten "downsized" before and its kinda scary. Mom told me through my Aunt (who also started working for Bayada, but she's a director), that the company has been closing offices and firing lots of people because they haven't made the money they wanted to make this year. Joann did say something that there was no way PV (Philadelphia Visits) was going to close. But I don't know, if you ask me the whole thing is disturbing and has left me really questioning if I truly want to continue at Bayada.
I know I've said this in several posts before that I want to quit, that I need to quit, and considering all the abuse I take I really should quit, but getting a new job isn't easy. I never said anything about this but back in early August I went on a job interview. As you can plainly see I didn't get the job (would have been nice though). Plus I'm still considering if I want to move to Charlottesville, but like I said about that I have several requirements that I have to meet before I even attempt to do it. But for the here and now, this is scary and I have no idea what I should do further more I don't even want to think about such a scary prospect.
And the thing is I don't know if I lost my job I'd be upset because I lost the job or I'd be upset over the money aspect of it. Ugh I'm to sick to think about these things right now (my head feels like it has a block of cheese in it).
But that's what's been going on at work... Scary isn't it?