What happened was I had a dream my boss Joann wasn't talking to me and I kinda knew I was going to be fired. So I went downstairs and talked to Joann and said to her, "Look, you've wanted to fire me for a long time now and just never had a justification to do so. You haven't been talking to me and I know how it goes. So how about this, I'm just going to clean out my desk and leave right now." So I calmly walk out of her office and let my mother know that I was leaving. After that I take the elevator upstairs, but I wake up before I get to my office.
So yeah, you can't get anymore blatantly work related then that. Although, and this is just f-in' weird, during the entire time I was talking to Joann, I was thinking in the back of my mind, "crap, now I won't be able to afford my Metal Gear dolls." Yes I know, even in times of crisis, even in my dreams, I still worry about my hobbies... Yeah, I know only me right?
But really, I don't know why I'm so worried. It's not like I plan on staying in that dump for the rest of my life. It wasn't even like I was planning on staying there for another 2 years or so. So why am I so upset about this whole Linda thing? I'll tell you why, because the way it happened and the reason it happened was just pure bullshit. And even though I don't plan on staying there much longer it sucks that I have to even question my job security. Dude, I shouldn't be awake at 3:30 in the morning worrying about that crap! Not for that rinky-dink place anyway. I could see if this was like some job where I was making an assload of money and I really cared about my work and all that good stuff, but not for that place. Hell no... I am so disgusted that I have to even second guess myself...
Oh the hell with this crap! Anytime I start having work related insomnia (which I have had quite a few times, but have chosen to ignore) it's time to get the hell out. I know what I have to do, I just have to get off my ass and do it. Yes kiddies, the time to move on is now. I just hope I can get out before I'm thrown out. But you know what, even in this dream I was the one to end it. That's all I'm asking to be the one who ends this job. I deserve at least that tiny bit of satisfaction.