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Isn't that what Mission 20 of Devil May Oink 3 called???  I think so, but anyway, as much as I would love this to be about Devil May Oink, its about what today is and today is Monday October 8, 2007, the day I turn in my letter of resignation.  I am scared to death, but more or less resigned to resigning.  And its weird, I have no idea what to expect.  One of the co-workers who knows I'm leaving thinks if Joann just quietly accepts my resignation that means the office is going to close.  My mother tells me don't be surprised if she does accepts it.  Personally nothing about today is going to surprise me one way or the other.

Man I have so many mixed emotions.  I feel sad, I feel really scared, and probably once I leave the letter on her desk and wait to hear what she has to say, I'll feel relieved, but I know I can't stay there any longer.  Yes things over the last week or so have been good, but I don't want to work like a bug under a microscope forever.  Plus I also know that yeah, things right now are good, but they'll be like they were two weeks ago and I can't go through that anymore.  I don't want to put up with another one of Joann's petulant tirades or mood swings.  I don't feel like dealing with the Medicare or whatever government agency waltzing in and nosing around through records.  I'm tired of having restless nights and horrible zombie nightmares.  And I'm really tired of giving my all and getting kicked in the stomach for it.  Never having a word of encouragement or even the occasional "I know you're doing your best and I thank you for it."

*Sigh...*

So yes, it's going to be a tough scary road ahead (wah and I'll probably end up having to cancel going to Nekocon, but Usa is on no matter what!), but in the end I know it's the right thing to do.  I kinda liken my job to an abusive relationship and I'll give you a prime example.  During the week of all the awful stuff that was going on with the blame game, their digging through records, scrutinizing my work, and screaming at me like I was 5 years old, at the end of this on Friday afternoon, Joann decides to buy the office lunch to I guess make up for her screaming at everyone.  And when she did that I just thought, isn't that what men do after the beat up their girlfriends and such?  Buy them some kind of present to make up for their asinine behavior?  And like I said to Kathy, abusive relationships aren't my style...  Abusive relationships suck and are for chumps and I won't play the chump anymore.  I'm getting out!

So yeah this is it, I'm chucking aside my pride to walk down a different path and we'll see what happens....  Hopefully it won't be the biggest mistake ever.  Hopefully things will work out for the best.

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allviolet
Oct. 8th, 2007 12:09 pm (UTC)
Good luck Adrienne... I'll be thinking about you. Give me a call sometime, I really miss talking to you!
rebelallie
Oct. 8th, 2007 01:23 pm (UTC)
Keep us updated!
kiyomi23
Oct. 8th, 2007 02:32 pm (UTC)
Be brave! It's useless to stay in a bad situation, good on you for making the change. Good luck!
scarbie
Oct. 8th, 2007 07:50 pm (UTC)
Good luck Adrienne! I know you're scared but your well-being is so much more important. The abusive relationship is a good analogy. I remember when you were looking for a job before and you found this one. You will find something else and you'll be much stronger for all that crap you put up with Bayada.

Please let us know how it went.
kawaii_neko23
Oct. 11th, 2007 12:13 am (UTC)
Good luck A' and don't worry you'll be fine and more happier than you've ever been to finally be away from that place. Hugs**
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