So without getting to cathartic here, let me tell you what happened.
I'm sitting at my desk getting some stuff done and Joann calls me from downstairs and asks, "I got your letter. Is this what you really want?" And without hesitation I say, "Yes." And she asks again, "Are you sure?" And I say again without hesitation, "Yes." So then she says, "Okay. Then I wish you well." She asks if I have another job lined up and I told her the truth that I didn't and I she asked how I wanted to tell the staff and I told her that the entire field staff knew and she was just floored by that (So much so that when she left the general announcement over voicemail she added that part in).
I feel so drained and depressed. I'm worried about money and if I'll be able to find a job... I'm scared to death to start my wedding consulting business, but its better to at least start that then sit around expecting clients to flock to me by osmosis... I don't know. I know deep down I'm making the right decision, but why do I feel so depressed and scared?
Hopefully these feelings will pass soon. For the time being I'm going to continue to send out my resume and hope someone else will take me on as an employee until I can get the consulting thing cranking. Here's hoping for the best!