You know, these stupid dreams come around every time I go on the wedding website or look at my email and I get something from The (Stupid) Knot. "Oh you have 7 months left and THIS is what you should be doing/ have done by now in your planning process!" Boo! I don't want to do any of it! I want it all to be magically finished and I don't have to think about anything. I want little wedding planning elves to come in and do everything while I sit back with a little fruity umbrella drink and go "Ahhhhh!" I mean if they can cobble some shoes together, why can't they plan and execute a wedding? But no! There are no wedding planning elves (I guess they're too busy with their lucrative shoe gig) and I have to be forced to think and I really don't like to think about anything.
Well that's not entirely true. I like to think about my business, but that oddly enough is a no brainer. The tricky part is getting the funding together and also figuring out some of the key things in my business plan, but otherwise that's it. I don't want think about seating charts, tracking RSVP's, or food... Well, I don't mind picking out the food so much, that's actually the best part, but still. I want wedding planning elves and more importantly I don't want to think about any of it.
And I know this probably sounds weird considering I was at one point a wedding planner, but it's different doing things for other people and not yourself. It's far easier to make decisions for others than it is to make a decision for myself. I don't think I understand why that is, but I just know I can pretty much make snap decisions when it comes to other people, but if I'm trying to make a decision for myself... "Bwuh?!" is usually the first word out of my mouth.