Because they're always awful.  It's never something like, the day is going to be lovely and perfect, oh no.  That would be too much to ask.  Instead it's always a dream of the big day being a flaming disaster.  One dream I had, I was in my dress still setting things up, because they weren't finished before I came downstairs.  I had another dream where I was all set to go down the aisle to my chosen wedding march, but the DJ wouldn't play it for some reason.  So I had to run over with my phone, hook it into the sound system (once again in my dress), set it to the song and then walk down.  And then there was last nights dream...  I only have three bridesmaids...  Well, two bridesmaids and one maid of honor, but I ended up with something like six or seven people in the bridal party and they all had their bouquets, but I didn't have one.

What?!

You know, these stupid dreams come around every time I go on the wedding website or look at my email and I get something from The (Stupid) Knot.  "Oh you have 7 months left and THIS is what you should  be doing/ have done by now in your planning process!"  Boo!  I don't want to do any of it!  I want it all to be magically finished and I don't have to think about anything.  I want little wedding planning elves to come in and do everything while I sit back with a little fruity umbrella drink and go "Ahhhhh!"  I mean if they can cobble some shoes together, why can't they plan and execute a wedding?  But no!  There are no wedding planning elves (I guess they're too busy with their lucrative shoe gig) and I have to be forced to think and I really don't like to think about anything.

Well that's not entirely true.  I like to think about my business, but that oddly enough is a no brainer.  The tricky part is getting the funding together and also figuring out some of the key things in my business plan, but otherwise that's it.  I don't want think about seating charts, tracking RSVP's, or food...  Well, I don't mind picking out the food so much, that's actually the best part, but still.  I want wedding planning elves and more importantly I don't want to think about any of it.

And I know this probably sounds weird considering I was at one point a wedding planner, but it's different doing things for other people and not yourself.  It's far easier to make decisions for others than it is to make a decision for myself.  I don't think I understand why that is, but I just know I can pretty much make snap decisions when it comes to other people, but if I'm trying to make a decision for myself...  "Bwuh?!" is usually the first word out of my mouth.